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Added on Sun 19th Oct 2014 11:15pm   Last edited on Wed 22nd Oct 2014 6:01pm
#1

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Member since: 1/01/1970

why

why? why did you have to leave us? ik you were in pain and your pain free now cuz your in heaven but we needed you here to keep our family going i dont understand why god took you away from us unless he thought that we were strong enough to get through this but he thought wrong we are strong until a certain level but when u left us our familly just went down hill i turn to drugs and doing other stuff that i shouldnt be doing but look where that got me that got me nowhere except in dh which sucked but it made me think about everything ive been doing and made me relize that i need to get my act together and straighten up and help mom out with the kids and doing stuff for her and listening to her and not getting into trouble. I just want to say that im srry what i put mom through i could gotten all of us taking away from her and i would have felt so so so so so bad doing that to her she lost u and she cant take no more but if she lost us to idk what would happen to her and im srry for everything i did to make you not proud of me and make you mad  at me and not to come and see me in my dreams lk you did with everyone else and i got jeilous cuz everyone said oh i had a dream of him he said everything is gonna be ok and i love you but no u havent done that for me yet have you no unless i dont remember but still i was your evertything and i was your baby girl i did everything with you and yet you still havent come and seen me!!!!!!!!i keep on trying and trying for u to come and see me but u aint maybe i just stop thinking about it and one day i need u you will be there i hope cuz i was there for u and i hope you are there for me. Papa i love you i miss the **** out of you i wish i can just hear one last word from you or you give me a big fat hug and that will settle have the pain im going through. I would be the happiest girl in the world if one of those actully happen to me.I LOVE YOUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HOPE YOU LOVE ME AND FOR GIVE WHAT EVER I HAVE DONE.LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY.

Added on Wed 22nd Oct 2014 6:01pm   Last edited on Wed 22nd Oct 2014 6:07pm
#2

Anonymous

Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and feelings...I hope you continue to do so... (((hugs)))